I haven't felt so alive in years The sun is shining down on me My eyes are welling up with tears Tears of joy, tears of ecstasy Emotions I once kept concealed Now flow freely like a river Life's great mysteries revealed Love's great promised delivered I hate my life I want to die I was just pretending all this time A mask I wear so I don't bare My soul to the cold, harsh world out there Try to prevail but only fail Each time on a grander and grander scale My life is worthless and so am I I hate my life I want to die The landscape rises to meet my feet The sky descends to fill my arms For once I finally feel complete For once I know I can't be harmed All I know is light and love I feel that I could live forever While others' troubles seem to grow I have no problems whatsoever The epiphany that came to fall Finally helped me reconcile What I felt wasn't joy at all All this time it was just denial