The shreds of memories stand strong and never fall
The edges frayed, seeming fragile after all
And I’m ashamed by my blunt personality
And I’m ashamed by how transparent I can really be
And all the memories crushed, diced, and thrown about
My brain convulses with every urge to let it out
With mud obstructing my chance at seeing clearly
My ineptitude leaves me distorting
There’s not soul who can truly understand me
There’s not a voice in the world that reaches out to me
When they try, there’s only one thing that I can hear
The screams of monkeys overflowing my ears
No matter how many times I look at the past
If I could, I would make it all disappear at last
I know how it seems that I could care less
Inside I’m a literal mess
Call me foolish when the breakdown’s only begun
Maybe things will end by jumping off the hands of temptation
And I’ll be in free-fall forever
And I’ll be unloving forever
My mouth is full of the unforgiving memories
And every day, they’re distorted even more, it seems
I hope you’ll never observe this horrid side of me
‘Cus I can’t stomach these feelings of morbidity
Within a hazy fog, I’ve been searching
For something beautiful, something worth anything
I’m nothing special, I’m lower than stupidity
A crowd of monkeys only laughing at me
I could never see a future for a person like me
Every little damn thing coming out of my mouth sounds like a madman
Nothing can make me laugh anymore
Forgiveness is all I ask for
Every night devoid of love, I wanna scream and cry
Don’t even try to tell me otherwise, it’s nothing but sympathetic lies
But really, I’m fine - I’m just a little strange
So don’t call me lonely anymore
I’m laughing out loud
My body paralyzed
The tears are filling up
I’m breaking down knowing our views were all for naught
And every corner of our consciousness is filled to the brim with twisted thoughts
Because of the years my heart spent filled with hate
It’s now in a stagnant state
Thinking all about how I could make the time go by
My mouth is spilling out the pieces from these fragmented words of mine
And even these lyrics are coated in lies
It’s pretty deceitful, so may I laugh?