She said that we don’t have to hug She said that I don’t have to love And when she took my wrist and pushed me 'gainst the wall The look on her face made me afraid of who she was And it's all okay 'cause it's all in my head And it's all my fault that my tears have stained the bed When I think of my mother I think of a guard holding me captive but not in her arms When I think of her voice I think of a siren Constantly sounding after pulling the alarm I'm anxious and broken because of her words I’ll never get back the time I spent putting her first When I think of my mother I'm often in tears 'Cause she is the reason for all of my fears Mommy Why don’t you want me How does it feel to be alone To call and to text once every year to ask me home Do you ever hurt to cry or care I'm not around Do you not regret the little contact we have now And it's all okay 'cause it's all in my head And it's all my fault that my tears have stained the bed When I think of my mother I think of a guard holding me captive but not in her arms When I think of her voice I think of a siren Constantly sounding after pulling the alarm I'm anxious and broken because of her words I’ll never get back the time I spent putting her first When I think of my mother I'm often in tears 'Cause she is the reason for all of my fears Mommy Why don’t you want me Why don't you want me Mommy