You keep repeating the lines I keep the fire inside Don't want to hear, but your words are deafening It's all so sickening Outnumbered by these thoughts I'm crawling in the dark Faced down again, I'm blinded by the night I'm separating emotions with lust I just need something to numb me Have you ever felt that you're not alive? You're just simply existing One day at a time I often feel there's a hole in the plan Like there's a deadline to happiness You move on to endless endeavors While I'm being lost in desperate beginnings You keep repeating the lines I keep the fire inside Don't want to hear, but your words are deafening Ignore the Sun that's in your eyes So you can watch me disappear I don't want to feel anything at all I still remember the words There's a fire inside you That will always guide you To a place that you call home But you stole it from me This time I'll wait for the end No desperate beginnings This time I'll wait for the end It's all so sickening If this is heart, I will defeat it If this is love, then I don't need it You keep repeating the lines I keep the fire inside Don't want to hear, but your words are deafening Ignore the Sun that's in your eyes So you can watch me disappear All the voices inside my head Keep telling me that I am sickening I feel the colors change change in me And I see the fire slowly burning out I always thought that life It would be more than this Another pointless, repeating pattern Of who I will disappoint today I need to go, but you want me to stay But I don't want to be here anymore Am I alive, or am I just fucking existing? It's all so sickening I don't want to be here anymore I just want to find my place I just want to find a way to stay the night To stay the night Alone I don't want to be here anymore I just want to find my place I just want to find a way to stay alive