(You're not good enough, life's not fair) (If you die, no one would care) When I was thirteen I started gaining weight So I started counting calories sometimes When I was sixteen Someone told me I was stupid So I bit my tongue, let others speak their minds Now I hear voices late at night And, honestly, I'm terrified That I'm never gonna be the same Some people are scared of heights And monsters coming out at night But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change I'm scared of myself If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well I'm afraid for my life I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help My thoughts go: You're not good enough, life's not fair If you die, no one would care Oh, I've lost control I'm scared of myself If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well When I was nineteen Someone stole my innocence And the first thing that I did was blame myself Now in my twenties And I still feel like a kid Tryna work through all that shit, but, God, it's heavy Now I hear voices late at night And, honestly, I'm terrified That I'm never gonna be the same (same) Some people are scared of heights And monsters coming out at night But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change I'm scared of myself If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well I'm afraid for my life I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help My thoughts go: You're not good enough, life's not fair If you die, no one would care Oh, I've lost control I'm scared of myself If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well (You're not good enough, life's not fair) (If you die, no one would care) (Oh, I've lost control)