I bought all these questions in my mind, and I'm still taking pain I bought all these homies all around, I just can’t take ‘em away I'm so overrated, overthinking, but I'm still the same I am not around me any more and I can fail me (you-uh) I am tryna do the certain thing, but I'm still right here I am out of control, and my mind still yelling at me My purpose to breathe, I'm awake, don’t wanna be here (I don’t wanna be here) I don’t wanna lose myself again I don’t wanna fall apart again I don’t wanna stay away in my illness (I don’t wanna be in love again) You always put me down again You're always coming back again (you're coming back again) You’re still making me feel that blame again (oh-ooh-ohh-oh) You’re always by my side, and still I'm okay with this, I just wanna be at home tonight Laying in my bed, and forgiving me for all that times That I should go away, and just start, try a one more time Pain will be always by my side, but it's all right Why I'm just right here, I don't know, but I will survive For all that times that I couldn't realize I just can't breathe, no, no, no I just can't breathe All this pain in my chest, I can't survive All this pain in my chest, you just make me remind All of that pain that I had in the past, but now I can't survive because you're not by my side You always put me down You always get me down You're always in the clouds You're always getting me out, out, of your mind You're always trying to make me feel guilty You're always trying to get off of my life You're getting out of the way And now I'm going to kill myself (oh-oh)