Last night, I had a thought There was a feelin' I thought I forgot Gave me affection, but somethin' was lost 'Cause I didn't want it, not at any cost I met a man, a family friend And I didn't think twice 'bout how I was dressed He kept inching closer, so I sat on the fence 'Cause I knew I was next, I knew I was next I know, just try not to change It's 'cause I felt bad, that's why I indulge But now look what happened, I'm sat in disgust With not him, but me No, not him, but me I wish I could cry about it (cry) God, help me cry about it (cry) Oh, ha, ha, ha, ha I should've fought this habit ages ago So I blame myself, if not me, who else? I'm antisocial, I deal with it alone So I blame myself, if not me, who else? Sadly (so sad), the story repeats And I'm convinced now the issue is me 'Cause this time it's a girl (huh?) and she don't wanna leave She's cookin' me food, how sweet and naïve She leans in, I don't pull away Don't want her to feel bad for another four days As I stare at the ceilin', she's starin' at me Oh, I had this feelin', but don't know how to leave I should've fought this habit ages ago So I blame myself, if not me, who else? I'm antisocial, I deal with it alone So I blame myself, if not me, who else? If you wanna blame yourself (if you want to) You cannot play the victim, baby (you cannot play the) If you wanna blame yourself (you cannot [?]) You cannot play the victim, baby If you wanna blame yourself (if you want to) You cannot play the victim, baby (you cannot play the) If you wanna blame yourself (you cannot [?]) You cannot play the victim, baby ([?]) I should've fought this habit ages ago So I blame myself, if not me, who else? I'm antisocial, I deal with it alone So I blame myself, if not me, who else?