I made a deal with something I couldn't name And now it lives inside me You found me in the quiet When I was begging just to feel Turned every scar into a doorway And taught me not to heal It whispers in your voice at night Like you never left And every time I try to breathe It tightens in my chest If I let you starve, do I disappear? Are you the only reason I'm still here? Every wound I tried to save Is just another thing you take Don't let me get better Don't set me free If you die inside me What's left of me? I kept you like a secret Buried deep beneath my skin Turned your absence into something I could live within Maybe I don't miss you Maybe I just need the pain 'Cause without it in my bloodstream I've got nothing left to say I built myself around it Every broken piece Now if I try to tear it out It tears me If I let you starve, do I disappear? Are you the only reason I'm still here? Every scar I try to keep Is everything you made of me Don't let me get better Don't set me free If you die inside of me You take all of me Was it ever you? Or just the thing you left in me 'Cause I still feel it Breathing If I let you starve, do I disappear? Are you the only reason I'm still here? Every scar I try to keep Is everything you made of me Don't let me get better Don't set me free If you die inside me You take all of me I think it's still alive