I was just a child with Open hands and open eyes Waiting for a moment You would finally realize Every smile I practiced was A door you never tried Every tear I swallowed was A piece of me that died I'd do anything to earn a gentle word from you But nothing that I gave was ever good enough for you I learned to eye the pieces that were soft and small You only loved me When I didn't feel at all I was just a kid who Only wanted to be loved But you taught me that affection Was a mountain not to touch Now I flinch at every promise Every hand that reaches out 'Cause unconditional love Is something I still doubt How could I believe in love When you never showed me how? I grew up like a shadow Trying hard to earn a place Reading every mood change Like a sermon on your face You called it love whenever I forgot my needs But real love doesn't bloom When someone else decides it breathes And I still hear your voice when someone says my name Telling me I'm selfish just for trying to heal the pain I'm learning that my worth was never yours to claim But loving feels like walking through a battlefield now I was just a kid who Only wanted to be loved But you taught me that affection Was a mountain not to touch Now I flinch at every promise Every hand that reaches out 'Cause unconditional love Is something I still doubt How could I believe in love When you never showed me how? I didn't fail you You failed me I'm unlearning every lie you Carved into my bones I'm learning love is something I Deserve to call my own But some nights I still feel Like that child in the dark Begging for a place Inside somebody's heart I was just a kid who only Wanted to be loved And I'm slowly finding out I'm finally worthy of enough You can't take back the damage Or the years you tore me down But I'm here now, I'm still healing I'm rewriting all the love I never found And maybe someday I'll believe it But I'm learning how