I can't find the feeling I can't define the feeling for myself I've made up the meaning I've made up a reason, but I know it won't help Maybe it doesn't matter It doesn't really matter if anybody hears I need build a ladder Build a ladder and climb my way out of here There's so many things that I want to say Cause part the of the picture is off the frame I'm back at the start but I feel the same Will I still fall apart when I hear your name? There's no use in trying No use in trying to make my point Cause while I was dying While I was dying, I couldn't use my voice So self-defeating So scared of leaving, for fear of being lost I needed air for breathing Needed air, but I didn't wanna pay the cost There's so many things that I want to say Cause part the of the picture is off the frame I'm back at the start but I feel the same Will I still fall apart when I hear your name? I'll go on just the same but the pain is a part of me Give me time, give me trust, give me just one apology I'll go on just the same but the pain is a part of me Give me time, give me trust, give me just one There's so many things that I want to say Maybe a different life would've been the same I'm back at the start but I feel the same Will I still fall apart when I hear your name? Will I still fall apart when I hear your name?