If I show you the forgetfulness What would you think? Would you laugh or be ashamed of it? I'm exhausted from smiling every single day When I know the pain won't just go away Every night I cannot sleep Because my thoughts run so deep They make me wanna choke Cause I'm stuck in a black hole My focus is no longer there, anyway I don't know why I'm like this, I swear It seems like I'm just ill, trust me Just means I'm stressed They want me to be normal A perfect son But my thoughts won't let me rot in peace Why can't I just blow my brain and end it? Damn