Wake up Go through the motions Feels like All of my limbs are frozen But don't show Anyone how hard it's really been One foot In front of the other Deep breath Then make myself take another How close can I get to the edge Without falling in? Knocked down before I even begin What if this is as good as it gets? What if I'll always have this big hole In the shape of you inside my chest? But what if the less it hurts The more I forget? And what if I'm not ready for that yet? Braced my Heart for the impact Thought I Could weather the storm till it passed How come It's still pouring down with no end in sight Maybe It's stubborn and foolish But I can't Stop clinging to this delusion That I'll be Back to my old self with a little time And live instead of only get by What if this is as good as it gets? What if I'll always have this big hole In the shape of you inside my chest? But what if the less it hurts The more I forget? And what if I'm not ready for that yet? People keep asking Questions With answers, they already know And I lie To not make them uncomfortable Or worse yet Make some little off-color joke I'm sorry if that was rude I swear that I was only trying To lighten the mood 'cause I've learned When it really comes down to it That no one Wants to face they're impermanent So I'll just Keep everything light and pretend I'm not stuck in this hell A vicious cycle where I'm always asking myself What if this is as good as it gets? What if I'll always have this big hole In the shape of you inside my chest? But what if the less it hurts The more I forget? And what if I'm not ready for that yet? What if I'm not ready for that yet?