I tried to live like I was pure Hiding every twisted urge Now I sit with all my sins And say: You stay, you still belong I used to scrub my guilty thoughts Wash them till they lost their shape Smiled until my jaw was hurt Just to make you feel all safe Every habit you called wrong Held me up when nights were long All the rage you tried to fix Kept me moving through the mess I don’t push them far away I let every flaw stay close If I try to tear them out I just lose the parts I know I love my damage, I won’t let go I hold my demons, let them show I won’t pretend that I'm something new I keep the worst and I call it: Me I used to chase your perfect praise Edit every move I made Choked on every doubt I had Till it rotted in my head Every cruel and jealous thought Sat alone and tore my nerves Now I pull them to the front Give them all the space they earned I don’t push them far away I let every flaw stay close If I try to tear them out I just lose the parts I know I love my damage, I won’t let go I hold my demons, let them show I won’t pretend that I'm something new I keep the worst and I call it: Me Let the envy stay with me Let the anger take a seat I can talk to every sin Ask it what it tried to keep I won’t throw myself away Trying to look soft and clean Every fault I drag onstage Is another part of me Bless my damage, let it stay All my demons on display No more hiding, no more shame This is ugly, I proclaim I love my damage, I won’t let go I hold my demons, let them show I won’t pretend that I'm something new I keep the worst and I call it: Me I won’t bow down to your idea of clean I take my flaws and let them sing I sit with rage, I sit with guilt I sit with all the things I did If the world wants something pure It can turn away from this I stay here with every fault I stay here with every sin I won’t beg to be revised I accept the mess I am