You pull me in with silent violence A saint of every bad decision I let you write along my pulse line And call it faith, and call it fiction I used to hold the wheel so steady Count every sin like little coins Now every line inside my body Is just a map of where you join You pour yourself into my habits Turn every hunger into cure I chase the stain of your approval Until the warnings start to blur Now I'm sinking through the ceiling Handcuffed to the way you taste Every promise feels like healing Till I'm shaking in your wake Take me like a backslide Make me your relapse Make me in that soft lie Till I don’t fight back If this is salvation Let it feel this wrong I’d rather fall to pieces Than learn to move on So keep me close when the noise cuts out That’s when I cry with the curtains down I only leak the salt in silence When all the walls forget to speak A choir of little guilty voices That only tremble once a week You turn my pulse into a ritual Lay every fever at your feet I call it hurt, you call it usual We trade control for something sweet Now I'm sinking through the ceiling Handcuffed to the way you taste Every promise feels like healing Till I'm shaking in your wake Take me like a backslide Make me your relapse Wrap me in that soft lie Till I don’t fight back If this is salvation Let it feel this wrong I’d rather fall to pieces Than learn to move on So keep me close when the noise cuts out That’s when I cry with the curtains down You trace my faults like constellations And I pretend it makes me whole I let you file my reservations And sign my body to your hold There’s poison hiding in this comfort There’s blame inside the way we move I say I’ll stop, but every contact Becomes another sacred proof I am not in control You are my favorite sickness Carve your mark in my soul I keep calling it witness I am not in control Drag me deeper inside you If this is all that I know I won’t try to deny you Take me like a backslide Make me your relapse Wrap me in that soft lie Till I don’t fight back If this is salvation Let it feel this wrong I’d rather fall to pieces Than learn to move on So keep me close when the noise cuts out I save my tears for the quiet end And every time I swear it’s over I let you break me once again