I'm becoming consistently worse everyday And I am turning into someone I really hate And time just ticks on the final day will never come I can't give up so I am forced to keep on All I've wanted is suddenly so grey and dull Aspirations have turned into a muddy blob Nothing spikes me and nothing really stays Only person I trusted to suddenly went away Sleeping till the day is new Sleeping till I feel confused Doing all the things I shouldn't Picking fights and acting stupid No one really sees me, do they? If they did why are they here then? All I do is make them sad All I do is always bad How I wish I never mattered to anyone Disappointing is worse when it's someone you love And that's what I do, consistently I'll let you down I promise you, it's better if you get out now All I've always wanted is suddenly so out of reach How I miss it, the hopeful naivety Back when I dreamed, so convinced it'd work out soon Only 15, now I'm 23 in June Sleeping till the time is stuck Sleeping till I can't wake up Doing everything to get by Is that why I'm still alive now? Why have I not cracked the code yet? Am I looking in the wrong place? All I do is push my luck All I do is always wrong