Trying is just a slippery slope to sadness Which is a slippery slope to madness Which is a Hollywood word for how I exist and work I guess And love is, just another word for obnoxious Which is to say that I'm loveless Maybe that’s why I am scared of you and what you do When you like me enough to make me feel like I'm good When you love me I think Maybe I could love too I always thought I might be bad Now I know that it’s true ‘Cause I think you’re so good and I'm nothing like you And you took me apart like a ball-jointed doll Put a heart where I used to be just ribs with a skull Now I hurt when you leave Was that better than before? Now I just want you to love me more And more, and more, and more, and more, and more And more, and more, and more, and more, and more Kill me Use me for what is my purpose Choke me until I turn purple Instead of your mild and self-sacrificing Humanizing My love is Closer to something that’s toxic Than love that is just something lovely Which is why I don't kiss ‘Cause I can taste myself on them Can you love me again if I'm a horrible friend? If I push you away to make more room for myself? If I'm broken and hurting and stuck in a loop? Always saying the same things, embarrassing you? Can you break me until I am broken enough To pathetically think that I understand love? It’s all a mental decoy I'm a broken toy Mistaking attention for joy Bleeding is maybe something to do with competing Just a proof that our bodies are fleeting Living life to the fullest has always been the weirdest thing And love has Always caused nothing but problems If you see my exes, please tell them That pain is a virtue, still nothing really Quite compares to How you sometimes dye my hair and Love me even when I'm sick I know I don’t deserve it Trying is just a slippery slope to surviving And that's why I'm writing and writing Never quite finishing any songs so I write more, and more, and more And more, and more, and more, and more And more, and more, and more, and more And more, and more, and more, and more And more, and more, and more, and more And more, and more, and more, and more, and more And more