In hospital, my neck and fingers were bandaged. Before i left, i crept to the ward jeanette was on. She was half conscious, so i just kissed her cheek, crying. I could barely take in how much we'd both been through. I was exhausted, but it was 9a.m. before i was able to fall into bed at a friend's house after giving a statement at the police station. Joe had been arrested, but i still had nightmares.