Ab
[Verse 1]
Ab
I've had enough I've had enough
Ab
I've taken all this time in my head
Gb
No further along, I can't resolve
E Eb
Stop wondering "why" it's such a silly question
[Verse 2]
Ab
Pardon my misdirection
Ab
I tend to deflect when I'm feeling threatened
Gb
I know I'm just a bag of bones
E Eb
So then, why the ache inside?
[Chorus]
Ab
My life is not my own
Eb
or at least not what it seems
Gb
The child before with brightest dreams
Eb
Awoken to unflinching reality
Ab
I can claim I have control
Eb
but the truth never listens to you or me
Gb
The sooner that I am crushed by time
Eb
The sooner I can finally be set free
Can we be free?
Ab Ab Gb E Eb
[Verse 3]
Ab
Remember Katie back in high school
and the way she smiled and smelled when she flipped her hair
Ab
Remember staring at the ceiling
and the pit inside your stomach when you found out she doesn't care
Gb
Remember listening to your best friend
tell her abuser that she will be alright?
E Eb
Remember feeling like a feeling maybe felt a little freeing,
but forgot that you were dead inside
[Pre-Chorus]
Ab
I've got perspective now
and the world isn't so small
Gb
But this reality makes me just not want
E Eb
want to live at all
[Chorus]
Ab
My life is not my own
Eb
or at least not what it seems
Gb
The child before with brightest dreams
Eb
Awoken to unflinching reality
Ab
I can claim I have control
Eb
but the truth never listens to you or me
Gb
The sooner that I am crushed by time
Eb
The sooner I can finally be set free
Can we be free?
[Bridge]
Db Db Cm Ab
Db Db Cm Ab
Db
I'm at the ending, I see my family
Cm Ab
but we're not broken, we are mending
Db
And all my loved ones, they are surrounding
Cm Ab
The fear inside my heart escaping
Db
And suffering has lost its meaning
Cm Ab
and grief and joy, they are both dancing
Db
I hold them close and tell them "I'm sorry"
Eb
and they just smile and say
You were never
Ab Db
alone
Eb Ab Db
You were never alone
Cm
This life is cruel, but has potential
Ab Db
There's something greater than we know
Cm
Why have meaning when there's no meaning
Ab Db
The evolution of our understanding
Cm
Creating purpose where pain resided
Ab Db
and telling ourselves that it's normal
Eb
If this is living then tell me what do I do now?
Ab
Do we all just carry on?
Ab Eb
Can we all just carry on?
[Chorus]
Ab
My life is not my own
Eb
or at least not what it seems
Gb
The child before with brightest dreams
Eb
Awoken to unflinching reality
Ab
I can claim I have control
Eb
but the truth never listens to you or me
Gb
The sooner that I am crushed by time
Eb
The sooner I can finally be set free
Ab
My life is not my own
Eb
or at least not what it seems
Gb
The child before with brightest dreams
Eb
Awoken to unflinching reality
Ab
I can claim I have control
Eb
but the truth never listens to you or me
Gb
The sooner that I am crushed by time
Eb
The sooner I can finally be set free
Ab
Can we be free?
