This is where I lost you yesterday And where I first saw her name Written in the blank space of a torn up receipt This is how you never heard your name And how your mind was torn away A sudden jolt from a long falling dream And last night Some kind of banshee was screaming out From the place I was before Its voice was sick and desperate While begging her for more It's what keeps us both together from a lifetime away No time passed still trapped in that day Shadows of palm trees Draw patterns on hotel curtains She's dead asleep in an unmade bed She never sleeps alone When we had all summer Until the winter kills us all You wanted to wait For some sort of fate Believing that God would save us It's worthless You know it's no one's fault but ours The only one we love's not with us anymore I'll lose my identity to not be your enemy You're not another victim of the things that she did to me I just need stability but monotony's killing me Denying the lies an exercise in futility I'm not better off with fake love A life that i can't think of Or know what to make of it Death from inside Last night I thought about giving up on everything And settling down with you I know it sounds so stupid After all that we've been through Maybe I'm just afraid to feel anything but hate It's just a miserable state Portraits of children Line hallways, a broken household I'm clawing right through The wallpaper that's peeling off the walls When we had all summer Until the winter killed us all You wanted to wait For some sort of fate Believing that God would save us It's worthless You know it’s no one's fault but ours The only one we love's not with us anymore I don’t want to die He's not with us anymore When we had all summer Winter He's not with us anymore Shadows of palm trees Draw patterns on hotel curtains She's dead asleep in an unmade bed She never sleeps alone I loved you last summer We lost him last winter Trapped in my bed I called you and said I'm gonna fucking end it It's worthless You know we'll never change the past I'll only hide behind the guilt from what I've done