Singing songs Of coercion At Christmastime I couldn't keep up with the choir So I drank all the wine I just hope that I can make it to the toilet in time Before that wall comes tumbling down I passed out feelin' like a piece of shit But I woke up lookin' like a prize fighting kid Got a shiny gold tooth from what my dad just did Told my momma told my momma I'm gonna make ya I'm gonna make ya proud Maybe this Christmas Will be different I don't think it will But a world war later and I'm back in the tank Got a chest full of medals but I'm firing blanks I guess its true what they say about the heroes thanks I'm really living, I'm really living I'm really living out a tragedy I'm a blue blood splatter on the flags of the dead I do the sharing platter with my kids on weekends Not that it matters but I'm makin amends They just wish, they just wish They just wish I'd leave my drinking at home Maybe this Christmas Will be different I don't think it will Maybe this Christmas Will be different I don't think it will Found a girl who likes my leather And the smell of my car So we spend some nights together At the local 2 star She dances on the bed As she takes off her bra The whiskey, the whiskey The whiskey puts her in a certain mood I woke up on the floor again with blood on my sleeve I hear them coming up the hall they must be comin' for me Tell the kids their daddy loves em but he had to make like a tree Which means I'll be back, I'll be back I'll be back in the spring Now I'm working in a garage Where I live in the bay I'm overdue on my rent And got a drug dealer to pay If I run a red the feds Just look the other way I'm really living, I'm really living I'm really living out my wildest dreams Maybe this Christmas Will be different I don't think it will