until this big revue i thought i'd figured out no release from the pressure growing strong confirmation from outside is a luxury but without i have to dig for the reasons found to live inject my life with meaning suffering from pains i needed a cure placed my attention in what could make a difference in my life all i wished for before was a reason to go on found in a tune hollow existence a grim prospect secured a distance and without i'm nothing sometimes i picture a life a picture i can't have denied it with this therapy i use to define identity what's lost in me to where i realize has how been refined security's no option invested all i had against recourse accepted rejection by decisions to ignore average life i was always so sure that the answer lay beyond the prescribed path refused admission to my escape provided the stage i need to realize/confirmed in my eyes