Better Than I Used to Be

Used to sink with (sink with) all the anchors (all the anchors)
Of the problems I catastrophize
Used to drown in (drown in), in the riptide (in the riptide)
Of perfection, thoughts in black and white

Patience don't come easily
My best friend was apathy
Living blind means anxiously
'Cause when I slow down, I can see

I've still got mountains (mountains) to climb on my way out of bed
I've still got oceans (oceans) to cross inside of my own head
But I'm not losing sleep
'Cause I'm a little bit better than I used to be

Used to hide in (hide in) in the deep blue of deprecation I romanticized
Used to swim from (swim from), from the shoreline (shoreline)
Of the good things I would minimize (I would minimize)

Patience don't come easily
And growth is perfect's enemy
And healing ain't a guarantee
But when I slow down I can see

I've still got mountains (mountains) to climb on my way out of bed
I've still got oceans (oceans) to cross inside of my own head
But I'm not losing sleep
'Cause I'm a little bit better than I used to be

I still got demons (demons) that drag me down and want me dead
A million reasons (reasons) to fall apart, but I ain't stressed
Yeah, I've bought room to breathe
'Cause I'm a little bit better than I used to be

I was tryna see the bright side with a blindfold on
Taking orders from my thoughts as if they're never wrong
Was avoiding all resistance, wishing I was strong
So, when I wanna be the martyr, I'm gonna try a little harder
I found comfort in distortions that I sold myself
'Cause nothing hurts if you believe you're too far gone for help
But if I'm growing, that's enough, I wish the old me well
'Cause when I wanna be the martyr, I'm gonna try a little harder

I've still got mountains (mountains) to climb on my way out of bed
I've still got oceans (oceans) to cross inside of my own head
But I'm not losing sleep
I'm a little bit better than I used to be

I still got demons (demons) that drag me down and want me dead
A million reasons (reasons) to fall apart, but I ain't stressed
Yeah, that's alright with me
I'm a little bit better than I used to be