(Holding me hostage up in my head Getting so tired of losing my friends) Oh, another reminder of why These chemicals are my only hope For surviving another night Cold, even if I live in the night, these years alone Keep me far behind, all my enemy lines I ain't one to wait on, wait on Been getting used to saying so long I'm praying that it's not contagious Even if I'm left forsaken Holding me hostage up in my head Getting so tired of losing my friends Living so haunted, sleep when I'm dead I've been unconscious again and again Holding me, holding me, holding me hostage Holding me, holding me, holding me hostage I've been misunderstanding the signs It's hard to breathe when the enemy Is the only me that feels alive Your mind, it always changes on the fly You're telling me that I'm what you need But I know you're a liar I ain't one to wait on, wait on Been getting used to saying so long I'm praying that it's not contagious Even if I'm left forsaken Holding me hostage up in my head Getting so tired of losing my friends Living so haunted, sleep when I'm dead I've been unconscious again and again Holding me, holding me, holding me hostage Holding me, holding me, holding me hostage Trapped here for all my days Wrapped up in my old ways Will they remember me? Holding me hostage up in my head Getting so tired of losing my friends Living so haunted, sleep when I'm dead I've been unconscious again and again Holding me, holding me, holding me hostage Holding me, holding me, holding me hostage