Look Been chasin' that peace Like the repo chasin' rent Headlights slicin' through the guilt I keep tryin' to resent Everybody say slow down But my bones say keep drivin' Pretty don't mean nothin' If your soul ain't survivin' If I crash if, I burn Let the record show this I ain't fake that smile I just learned how to hold it bitch I been huntin' for a sunrise In a life built on night Tryin' to find me some calm With my hands still ready to fight 2 am summer thick Radio hush mind loud Same old hurt in a new zip code Same dark cloud, different crowd Cupholder full of old receipts Fast food wrappers change and blame Phone on 8 percent No texts that help Just names that look like pain I roll past bars, past scars Past the boy you ain't shit Past the mirror where I practice, I'm fine Then my eyes don't fit I been through that numb me phase Yeah, I know that road Where one little sip turn a whisper Into a whole damn overload I learned quick Shine don't equal safe Loud don't equal strong Some folks feel like heaven Til they teach you what is wrong And I ain't drivin' drunk nah I buried that stupid habit I seen what it costs, I paid that price I ain't tryin' to relive that damage But I still ride reckless in my skull That's the part folks miss Speedin' through my own thoughts Like the law got a warrant for this They say get a plan I say I'm tryin' not to drown Tryin' to keep my boots on earth While my head float outta town I crack jokes in the dark 'Cause the dark crack back Like you want peace pay pain Yeah, it don't come attached Tell me what you know bout Laughin' in public then cryin' at red lights About starin' at a ceiling fan Like it owe you new nights Tell me what you know bout I'm good bein' code For if I sit with my thoughts too long I might fold I been chasin' that peace Like the repo chasin' rent Headlights slicin' through the guilt I keep tryin' to resent Everybody say slow down But my bones say keep drivin' Pretty don't mean nothin' If your soul ain't survivin' If I crash if, I burn Let the record show this I ain't fake that smile I just learned how to hold it bitch I been huntin' for a sunrise In a life built on night Tryin' to find me some calm With my hands still ready to fight 5 am cold sweat Sheets twisted jaw clenched tight Wake up swingin' at shadows Like they been waitin' all night Night terrors run reruns Like a broke TV stuck on the worst scene Same fear, different angle Still feels real still mean I hear my weakness say quit I hear my backbone say don't I hear the old me beg for easy And the new me say I won't I been walkin' through my hell With a pocket knife and nerve Tryin' to carve me a path out the mud I used to deserve People love your shine, hate your honest Love your hook hate your hurt Love you when you're funny Disappear when the truth get dirt So I talk to the road Cause the road never judges It just opens up miles While my chest rearranges I ain't searchin' for perfect I'm searchin' for steady For a breath that don't shake For a mind that stay ready For a day I don't flinch When my phone start buzzin' For a night I don't need All them vices for nothin' Yeah, I want what's real Not what's pretty on sight Cause the prettiest things Be the sharpest knives Some nights I get so low I can't hear my own name Then I crawl out the hole Hands bleedin' from the frame I don't need a throne I need a reason to stand Need my future in front of me Not a bottle in hand So if you feel like you're sinkin' In the same damn sea Put your fist to your chest Breathe slow with me We ain't fixed we're built Piece by, piece by bruises by time We just learn how to live While were still fightin' our mind Yeah, I been chasin' that peace Like the repo chasin' rent Headlights slicin' through the guilt I keep tryin' to resent Everybody say slow down But my bones say keep drivin' Pretty don't mean nothin' If your soul ain't survivin' If I crash if, I burn Let the record show this I ain't fake that smile I just learned how to hold it bitch I been huntin' for a sunrise In a life built on night Tryin' to find me some calm With my hands still ready to fight Room used to spin Now it just sways Eyes red Voice steady I ain't chasin' a high no more I'm chasin' a life