This debilitating cynicism leaves me throwing fists Blindly, unkindly, I deliberately hide so that you can find me Unmentionable, the seeking of attention that we require And I impede my own libido with a silent fear of fire Hold me higher than your loved ones Mask my bad intentions I wish I was as pure as my lustlessness suggested Go fall, I'll hold you back Surround myself with your artifacts My mind wanders with a sense of urgency I watch you fade away from me I discreetly try to imbibe the origins of your resentment Above me, you reside as I strive for mere acceptance Escaping dignity, I ruined the pedestals I built And bruised by your excuses, I characteristically wilt Condemned by a guilt that I can't abandon, I lessen to the floor I've derobed you more times with my eyes than you have with your paws Go fall, I'll hold you back Surround myself with your artifacts My mind wanders with a sense of urgency I watch you fade away from me