Summer again and this world stands still in my heart Beats bare Just like sandpaper It is relief From the cold of the air and the still greater chill within My fate is my face If I make it through just one more year Without losing this ever-fading grin Twitch the corners of my mouth Sprinting downwards this losing race Until the leaves return I hope it still feels the same When it's gone When the shadows cease to follow Will I be a man? Am I worthy of that label? But as for now The greyness of the outside Just reflects It mirrors me alive no It hasn't felt the same These past four fucking years I know the warming air Won't truly alight my heart But it's better to hope for the hopeless Than for nothing at all Gives me something to believe in; If I could see you I'd give you my tears Gives me something to believe in; Bottled as if a quaint commodity Gives me shelter leaves me bleeding; Something to stop me from sleeping Every minute of the day And save me from the atrophy Faded initials encased in a heart Carved into the side of a fallen tree