I hate I hate I hate everything And I hate myself the most I don't care about anything anymore There's no point You posses a false body and a fake soul Do you know why? I am neither false nor fake I am simply me No You are an empty shell with a false soul You are just an object that is pretending to be a human Look deep within yourself Do you perceive the almost intangible and invisible presence that lurks below your waking self? Inside your darkest dreams? It is there that your true identity lies No, I am me I became myself by the instrumentality of the links and relationships between myself and others I am formed by interaction with others They create me as I create them These relationships and interactions will serve to shape the patterns of my heart and mind But there is someone else who is your true self This is what you fear Lying in a dark corner The last candle light is dying out Trying to refuse this suffering As darkness burns my frail naked soul I faced my fears a thousand times Endless doubts, life of paranoia I try to find a way out From this state of suicidal urge I read with empty eyes the page As tears begin to fall down my face Another night alone with myself At one with melancholy and depression I fled because the dark is near I cry as I realize you can't be here I needed to caress your skin in the night But now my only friend has left my life Why must I live with these fears? I know my only tragedy is my mind Sometimes I think I'm wasting all the joys And with this bitter thought I fear to die I feel so jaded now, so far away I can't face the next morning with this pain Another thought lacerates my mind This time pray it will be the last I'm only trying to objectivate this hate To prove towards myself and life itself My words are nothing more than open wounds I cry to nobody in the night I only need to stop these sick death thoughts And cry for joy when you'll be here again (these dreams seem impossible) I'll watch you sleeping naked at my side I'll kiss you and these thoughts will stop to flow Don't do anything Don't come near me All you ever do is hurt me Anyone can abandon you one day Life brings pain and suffering on our way Cut all ties, it's simpler than it seems But in death you'll know Disheartenment always wins I am happy Because I want to die I want despair I want to return to nothing But when everything is over And I am of no use anymore He will abandon me