I didn't plan to end up here But wrong turns have a way of feeling permanent When you stop fighting them This city isn't home, it's a pause I overstayed A place where the lights stay on But nothing really moves forward I traded savings for survival Love for distraction Time for the illusion that exhaustion Could drown regret And somehow I kept calling that living There's a bottle open on the table Not because I'm celebrating But because silence asks for company Wine tastes like patience that went sour Like promises that learned how to evaporate I stopped counting beers a long time ago Numbers lose meaning When repetition becomes routine Holidays come and go unnoticed Dates pass like trains I don't board And work fills the spaces Where hope used to wait I eat when the clock says tomorrow Drink coffee to stay upright Pour another glass to slow my thoughts back down My dog watches me from the floor Quiet, loyal, seeing everything I pretend not to notice He knows the weight in this room The sound of a man wearing himself thin Even when I don't speak it out loud Something in me is asking How much longer this can last I pick up the guitar And let my hands say what I avoid Fragments, bends, small phrases searching for air Music doesn't save me But it reminds me I'm still here Every riff carries the same question How do you leave Without knowing where to land? Soft lies kept me functional Hard goodbyes kept me honest And somewhere between them I learned how to survive without healing This isn't a cry for rescue It's an admission of urgency I can't wait for life to change its mind Each day I stay still Something inside me erodes quietly Hope isn't gone But it's tired of being postponed I don't need miracles I need movement Even if it burns Even if it costs The bottle is still open But it doesn't own me tonight This song is a line in the sand A refusal to disappear politely If I'm leaving It won't be slowly I'll step forward carrying scars Unfinished dreams And the truth that staying hurts more Than trying Somewhere beyond this city There has to be a life That doesn't feel like waiting to fade