Did I fog the lens with crying eyes? Did I get undressed to drop the disguise? Trade common sin for common sense A life undone in heaps of regret Baby bird, my cult of one You're getting thin, my prodigal son So I count my stones before they're laid Like the architects of ancient Pompeii I know too much it's freaking me out But there's gold under the rust Figuring out just how to live I'm so afraid you're finding me out But there's something in the rough Figuring out just how to live I made a little money, but it's never enough She'll tell me that she want me but it still ain't enough My neighbors gettin' naughty and it's keeping me up There's no God above me and it's fuckin' me up She came into the lobby, eyes lookin' for love She don't know that I've had another honey for months And I'm a man with a thimble fighting a flood Still figuring out how to live Monday comes, I'm ashamed From throwing crumbs at the funeral parade I can't sleep, I'm losing face I'm so much older than my age I can't sleep, waste my days I'm so much older than I can take, oh I know too much it's freaking me out But there's gold under the rust Figuring out just how to live I'm so afraid you're finding me out But there's something in the rough Figuring out just how to live I made a little money, but it's never enough She'll tell me that she want me but it still ain't enough My neighbors gettin' naughty and it's keeping me up There's no God above me and it's fuckin' me up She came into the lobby, eyes lookin' for love She don't know that I've had another honey for months And I'm a man with a thimble fighting a flood Still figuring out how to live And I always play the victim Though I'll tell myself I don't Mister casual and flippant He's ashamed to be alone And I'm no stranger to the distance But I'm missing her bad And I'm up at night and wishing It could be simple as that I know too much it's freaking me out But there's gold under the rust Figuring out just how to live I'm so afraid you're finding me out But there's something in the rough Figuring out just how to live