I never needed help I needed someone to watch me fall How many times did I build myself out of nothing just to tear it all down again? How many promises did I stitch into my own skin just to rip them out when no one stayed? Every mirror I broke, every door I slammed, every fist I threw at the air I was screaming for someone to make it stopa But I knew it had to be me And it never was I saw the cracks form I watched the floor give out I was the first to leave myself behind Nothing left to patch Nothing left to hate but me I filled every empty space with noise, with blood And every time I said: I'm fine it felt more like a loaded gun than a lifeline I ran my hands through the ashes of what I could've been Crushed every second chance like it owed me something I was supposed to be better But I can't stay human long enough to heal How many times did I build myself out of nothing just to tear it all down again? How many promises did I stitch into my own skin just to rip them out when no one stayed? Every mirror I broke, every door I slammed, every fist I threw at the air I carry every version of myself that failed I drag them behind me like a fucking chain Crumble where I stand, bury me in the walls I built I was the storm I was the silence after I was everything I said I'd never be I was everything I said I'd never be And I can't even tell I can't even tell the difference anymore