All alone In this big white room If this is my last groan Just put me on my tomb I'm haunted by: What if's The voices said: I shouldn't exist I stumbled over my emotions I should've lowered my expectations Just give me a sign To get back my shrine Why I'm living at the borderline If that wasn't mine Why the stars intertwined? Whatever, I'm living at the borderline At the borderline At the borderline At the borderline At the borderline At the borderline At the borderline I recall The sense of the fall And there's no colorability To define misery The lust surrounds my loneliness Longing the touch that almost kills Craving forbidden thrills Then I sigh and my body chills The world is mean And I'm made of opaline Why I'm still living at the borderline? It was a matter of time To be punished for that crime I must be living at the borderline At the borderline The borderline The borderline At the borderline The borderline The borderline (I wish I could go back in time A time I wasn't living at the borderline) I'm still alone I don't know how to say no What kind of a father I will be? The boy in me pleads silently