And then, in the midst of all this We pretend to get used to it The backstabbing Fake smiles and hypocritical hugs We get used to the indifferent stares To everything we consider rotten We keep searching for ways out of recurring mistakes We keep trying to escape, so as not to become like them I could have kept what I knew to myself But whoever hides from evil Is doing worse That's how I think This might help It might lead to nothing But what matters in this life Is having peace and a clear conscience And smile, smile In the midst of all this, smile Yes, knowing how to feel I don't know how long this will last Will my calmness be normal? Feeling pain without screaming Disappointment without tears I don't know how long this will last Will my calmness be normal? This pain that screams nothing Feeling like a weirdo! I don't know, I wanted a hug But I didn't want one either I wanted to let out my tears But I didn't want one either To tell the truth Even I'm tired of caring Of wanting and 'unwanting' So many things in this life! To appear balanced, I'm in therapy Maybe they'll have to put me in a mental hospital But who cares? Maybe I'll start having laughing fits But who cares? Maybe I'll jump off a cliff But who cares? Who cares? I'll laugh at the despair So I don't cry like a child And then, I'll see what happens But relax, just relax now Because I don't know how long this will last Is my calmness normal? Feeling pain without screaming Disappointment without tears I don't know how long this will last Is my calmness normal? This pain that screams nothing I've been feeling strange! But when I have my crying fit I won't scream, no one will hear It will be between me and God Crying is private!