One more distraction to keep me from Laying in the wake of my own destruction And I want you to believe that I'm better, but I'm not So it's one more temporary love illusion I don't wanna get in too deep Making these promises I won't keep Just hold myself down steady and hope I can sleep When I dive into another bed I'm so empty inside, filling up on regret If I'm honest with myself, I'm still terrified at best I tried, I'll admit, I'm not ready, I'm not ready Saw my reflection in someone Couldn't see you coming but I lost two hours And I wanted to believe I was better off back then But there's a crack in the mirror and it left me broken I don't wanna get in too deep Making these promises I won't keep Just hold myself down steady and hope I can sleep When I dive into another bed I'm so empty inside, filling up on regret If I'm honest with myself, I'm still terrified at best I tried, I'll admit, I'm not ready, I'm not ready I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready I'm not ready, I'm not ready I don't wanna get in too deep Making these promises I won't keep Just hold myself down steady and hope I can sleep When I dive into another bed I'm so empty inside, filling up on regret If I'm honest with myself, I'm still terrified at best I tried, I'll admit, I'm not ready, I'm not ready I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready I'm not ready, oh, I'm not ready