Your touch illuminates the very darkness of deception I can't break free of constant indirection My body hollowed out with nothing left to live inside Condemned to medication, numb my mind Tossing and turning, afraid to open my eyes To see the act of self destruction Time so far away Close your eyes to drown in honesty It doesn't matter what you say to me I'm not the person that you seek This overwhelming sense of tragedy Is all you need to build these walls around you Set fire to your beliefs once again Abandon the hope and the change that you saw in me This temporary purpose Consumed all that's giving me peace Force fed lies that have kept me awake Another wave of displacency consuming me Consistent loathing will drive me to the end Abandon, alone inside my head Bound to the substance of make-believe, constructed happiness Why is it so hard to feel I'm trying to hold on but time just won't stand still