I find joy in the blur Longing for the moments I regret Hollow out my deepest wounds I've never felt in control Let it happen again and again Anxieties never sleep When I dream of the end of the world This poison self-inflicted We learn to live without The joy in the blur I deserve to be punished For never wanting to be fixed Give away my misery So I don't have to live with it I deserve to be punished For never wanting to be fixed Give away my misery So I don't have to live with it Devastation all around me A thousand reasons to be angry Echoes of disfigured ghosts Voices you could diagnose Unloved since birth My father's curse Unloved since birth My father's curse I deserve to be punished For never wanting to be fixed Give away my misery So I don't have to live with it I deserve to be punished For never wanting to be fixed Give away my misery So I don't have to live with it Cursed at birth with the mark of a bastard I emerge the shepherd that butchers the black sheep I disavow Unloved I disavow Cursed at birth with the mark of a bastard Unloved I disavow