Caught in the spiral Of constant fear Numb to the sickness Distance myself from my blessings Comfort in my sabotage of self Embracing their poison (with a tightened grasp) The pen bleeds Tearing myself from the inside Run from the light Watch my promise die I beg myself not to let you down As I feel myself sink to the ground Strip me of my flesh Take what's left Swallow the hate Internalize Killing desire Desire to thrive I let their teeth sink Toxic venom stirs within The doubt consumes everything Is this the path that's meant for me? How long must I grow to find comfort and peace? Will the fear subside? If I give up will I be (able to breathe?) Staring into hollow eyes Run from the light Drowning in my own shame Run from the light Shattered reflections of you Watch my promise die