Goddamn How did you get like this? You were always such a happy kid Mhm Never good enough Got 'em like a sugar rush And they love me for a second Til the high wears off Small doses Only for a moment Til they find someone else Less broken Goddamn Got 'em like a sugar rush Mhmmmm They ask me 'bout my dreams When I can barely do the dishes Once a week Brush my teeth If I had it my way All I'd ever do is sleep Mezcal pumped through a little iv Invest in a really good mattress Wake up once a year to do my taxes No more holding out for magic tricks Wands and rabbit shit I'm just stuck like this False hope's an expensive myth Goddamn How did you get like this? You were always such a happy kid Straight A's in your classes That's before all the acid Own up to your actions It's your fault that you're this way Ignore the memories that predate The drugs and the liquor The meds make you sicker You've ruined your brain It's your fault you're insane It's your fault you're depraved Never good enough Got 'em like a sugar rush And they love me for a second Til the high wears off Small doses Only for a moment Til they find someone else Less broken Goddamn Got 'em like a sugar rush Ooh Had a dream when I was seventeen Well, that was back before the ketamine Whole life ahead of me I was gonna be a star Move to California Palm trees in my yard But I smoked more trees than I Saw of 'em Found God in the bottom of a bong When I Made a cocktail Of a couple of things That I should've left behind in withdrawals Goddamn How did you get like this? You were always such a smiley kid Easy going Low maintenance Didn't care what Other people were saying You should give your therapist a call You're exhausted Can't see the bigger picture in it all Get out of bed It's 5 PM And take a walk before the Sun is gone Scared to get my hopes up So I always self sabotage Never good enough Got 'em like a sugar rush And they love me for a second Til the high wears off Small doses Only for a moment Til they find someone else Less broken Goddamn Got 'em like a sugar rush G-G-Got 'em like a sugar rush Got 'em like a sugar rush