When every thought brings so much pain It's hard to explain I don't wanna feel anything It's hard to explain I don't wanna change, something in my brain Telling me to hate all I ever say I don't wanna change, something in my brain Won't go away Far from home where you'll find me Made my bed and I'll finally Lay in it Lay in it Far from home where you'll find me Made my deathbed and I'll finally lay in it I'll lay in it Backpacked on my own Rather be fucked up all alone Airplane mode on my iPhone Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known, but I know that Everyone that I believed in was holding me back Matter of fact I wasn't leaving Because what I needed was space that I lacked I got off track Don't wanna do it by myself, but I don't want no help The only ways to go away and write a story to tell Made a promise that'd I'd love myself And a promise that'd I'd break it Made a promise that'd I'd get better And a promise that'd I'd fake it Promised myself that'd I'd give up Give up everything that you hated Made a promise that'd I'd enjoy my life And a promise that I'd take it Far from home where you'll find me Made my bed and I'll finally Lay in it Lay in it Far from home where you'll find me Made my deathbed and I'll finally Lay in it I'll lay in it