I forget How to love you When I can’t feel your weight Push the color from my face But if I let Myself hate you I only imitate The faults I thought I had erased But held up to the light I almost find a reason to be kind When my memory gets wiped It’s almost like the history isn’t mine I regret Close to nothing Isn’t that what liars say When they’re trying to save face But if I get Close to honest The life I’ve fabricated Feels too brittle not to break But held up to the light I almost find a reason to be kind When my memory gets wiped It’s almost like the history isn’t mine What if changing doesn’t change a thing I’d still tear my world apart Just to keep from wondering Apprehension could send me to my knees Still I’d throw open like the gates I wouldn’t have to feel a thing