I was fifteen with a pen in a pocket full of ghosts Chasing veins like they were highways out the coast My sneakers wore thin on these needle streets Trading blood for solids, trading lungs for a head Mother said God won't save broken boys Father's voice felt static just the background noise I learned that prayers don't echo in alleyways Only footsteps, sirens and yesterday's mistakes And I'll still run From a mirror that don't speak my name And I'll still burn every bridge, every vein, every flame So let me drown, let me choke, let me fade into the smoke The city got no angels left for me I'm just a shadow on the wall, another name they won't recall Ghosts that learn to bleed Beautifully The pavement's cold but it feels like home A bed made of needles, skin and bone I sold my soul for a five minute dream Pocket full of nothing and a fist full of grief The cops know my face, dealers know my name The grave keeps sending postcards calling me again Church locked its doors when I knocked three Guess even God won't deal with kids like me And I still run From the echoes of a younger me And I still burn in a world that don't believe So let me drown, let me choke, let me fade into the smoke This city got no angels left for me I'm just a shadow on the wall, another name they won't recall A ghost that learned to bleed Beautifully Tell my mother I tried Tell my father I lie to my friends I'm fine till the grave Not yet, not yet Let me drown, let me choke, let me fade into smoke There's no salvation left for me Just a shadow on the wall, another name they won't recall Ghosts that learn to bleed beautifully