Somewhere along the darkened way I will find some light that guides me Somewhere in the furious crowd I will find someone who guides me My messy mind and my fears made me make this decision And I tried to explain, but now there’s no turning back And you understand when I talk about the things I did before to think And you understand when I talk about the faults I had throughout life Blaming myself eternally and tricking my brain with lies My wrist cuts made me sleep and I never woke up anymore You did not deserve to see the moment of my last sigh But, please, remember me the times when I was good to you And you understand when I talk about the things I did before to think And you understand when I talk about the faults I had throughout life You used to convince me to not give up everything You used to convince me saying things could get better And you understand when I talk about the things I did before to think And you understand when I talk about the faults I had throughout life You tried to show me how the world can be nice seen from that view You tried to show me how life can be amazing swimming upstream But now I have gone away carried by my heavy thoughts