My downward spiral of self-destruction So hard to live in my own skin My biggest fear is self-reflection The mirror shows me who I am A liar, thief, manipulator Always choosing the wrong path Always making wrong decisions I will always be the loneliest of men Self-loathing is my home The pills they ease the pain I'm drowning in alcohol Opiates, my true love The needle finds the vein Cowardly, wanting death to call To feel that drug is all I live for To feel its love wash over me My body craves, my mind, it wants more It's always calling out to me In every shadow and every corner Always searching out for me I suffer alone with my hatred This wretched agony that is me Tomorrow I'll try to recover I'll reach out to my family Just one night with my lover Hello death, you've come for me?