I hate who I am when I'm thinking And I hate who I am when I'm drinking When I'm drinking it stops me from thinking Thinking that I have been sinking Lower and lower and lower Feeling like my life is over Feeling like I'm going nowhere Just feeling and feeling and feeling and feeling And feeling like I shouldn't be drinking I had to stop thinking What was I thinking I hate who I am when I'm clinging To the times I was actually getting Joy from these words I've been winging Joy from the warmth a new day brings Joy from all of the small things Joy just from anything Or anything other than Needing and needing and needing and needing And needing to be drinking I gotta stop thinking I gotta stop thinking Gotta start drinking But just take some magnesium, a tasty gummy vitamin Go outside in the Sun Take a walk or go for a- No, just take some vitamin d and drink some water for me Can't you see Oh, can't you see It's the only cure you need One day at a time Makes it seem fine It's just another day It's just another one to throw away But when I add up the time I know it isn't fine I've thrown away and I'll keep throwing away every day As long as I keep living this way But I like who I am when I'm helpful And I like who I am when I have self-control But the times these things happen is pitiful Leaning to a life that feels regrettable Or on the best days forgettable Feeling I'm leaning towards wasting Wasting your time with my whining Wasting my time, always wasting my time Always wasting my time, always drinking I gotta stop drinking I have to stop drinking I have to start thinking One day at a time Makes it seem fine It's just another day It's just another one to throw away But when I add up the time I know it isn't fine I've thrown away and I'll keep throwing away every day As long as I keep living this way