When I left you the last time I had dreams about you every night You would plead with me to stay Grab me by my hand and whisper You'd say don't let go that you always were innocent Won't let go, said that I won't go then I did A moment ago I happened to find the letter from The day that my guard came down I wondered if relapse is a love affair Lusting everywhere that I go I was so into you I'll always be sincere I drown myself for hours in relationships I've never lived This alternate reality, it always gets the best of me I drown myself so it can live My heart my soul to you, I give The smell you left on all my shirts I hate to love the way it hurts I hate to love the way it hurts I hate to love the way it hurts 2 years ago I boarded a flight to where you weren't The cold Massachusetts air sobered me up again and I wondered if relapse is a love affair, lusting everywhere that I go I'm still into you I'll always be sincere I drown myself for hours in relationships I've never lived This alternate reality, it always gets the best of me I drown myself so it can live My heart my soul to you I give The smell you left on all my shirts I hate to love the way it hurts I hate to love the way it hurts I hate to love the way it hurts I hate to love the way it hurts I hate to love the way it hurts