I could write a book on how to self destruct Obnoxiously waiting, not giving a fuck Like a rat in a cage, in a trap with my rage I can't trust myself that I will ever get out, no no I'm back now blaming the game Fucking done with everyone and everything Light it up just to feel a relief Drench myself in kerosene Distracted by reality Self-made public enemy Sugar till my eyes would bleed Came to find a meaning but only found your grief Take to the world with who you wish to be Buried sorrows so deep, nobody else can see Why the fuck am I listening to the bullshit that you plead? Have I been so low that I thought what you showed would be exactly what I need Easy to betray Yeah it's just a game Just swallow the pill And smile for portray This is the part of me I never wanted you to see Get out my head I can't seem to go on Hold on to what I need, stuck in the in between Drown out the noise that has led me so wrong Cover me in kerosene Fuse the in between Easy to betray Yeah it's just a game Just swallow the pill And smile for portray Only a game I don't wanna play Why the fuck have I been listening? Why the fuck have I been listening? This is the part of me I never wanted you to see Get out my head I can't seem to go on Hold on to what I need, stuck in the in between Drown out the noise that has led me so wrong Dark days ahead