We both went to the 12 rods show, And pretended not to see each other, The only thing we swore would never happen, No matter what else did, And i don't really blame you, i suppose, Lord knows it was a perfect let down, But i remember feeling like, The only people in any crowded room. I'm still trying to convince myself, I don't care if you think i'm an asshole, I'm still trying to convince myself, I hope you're happy now. Now you're making jokes at my expense, Whatever makes you smile, And holding hands with a formerly mutual friend, Whatever makes you feel strong. I'm still trying to convince myself, I don't care if you think i'm an asshole, I'm still trying to convince myself, I hope you're happy now. When you base your whole identity, On reaction against somebody, It's the same as being in love. You look so happy, I hope it's not a performance for my sake. I'm still trying to convince myself, I don't care if you think i'm an asshole, I'm still trying to convince myself, I hope you're happy now. I'm still trying to convince myself, I deserve a silent treatment, I'm still trying to convince myself, That i never knew you, I never knew you, oh. When you base your whole identity, But i'm asking for your forgiveness, 'cause you know i meant no harm, And i'm kind of ashamed, I can't say i behaved well, But i'm asking for your forgiveness, 'cause you know i meant no harm, And i'm kind of ashamed.