Parking lot light buzzing over our heads Rain on the windshield, blurring what you said You sighed: I can't keep bleeding for two Hands in your pockets, eyes straight through Key fob shaking in my stupid hand Mouth full of words that would not land You turned away with your jaw locked tight Tail lights cut a line through the night I still taste that night every time I breathe All the soft lies stuck behind my teeth One slammed door and the world rearranged Now every heartbeat sounds like your name I'm still trapped in the night you said: Leave Hands on the wheel, but I couldn't breathe It's not the hurt, it's the choice I made I let you fade Every road that I take still screams your name It's not the hurt, it's the choice I made I let you fade Your coffee cup's still stained on my desk Lip print there like a closing threat I wear your shirt when the nights get loud Then rip it off when I think too proud Friends say: Man, you gotta let it go But they weren't there in that yellow glow When you stared through me like I wasn't there Every promise hanging thin in the air I still taste that night every time I breathe All the sharp truths hiding under my teeth One small word might have changed your mind Now I chew on every line I left behind I'm still trapped in the night you said: Leave Hands on the wheel, but I couldn't breathe It's not the hurt, it's the choice I made I let you fade Every road that I take still screams your name It's not the hurt, it's the choice I made I let you fade I've punched walls just to feel something crack Blamed the mirror, blamed the pills, blamed the lack Turned my chest into a war I can't win Every kick drum beating where you've been But I can't stay parked in that scene on repeat Living tied down to an empty seat If you called right now, I'd still hesitate 'Cause I finally see what I did when I watched you I'm not stuck in the night you said: Leave Hands on the wheel, and I finally breathe It's not the hurt, it's the choice I change I won't let you fade Every road that I take won't wear your name It's not the hurt, it's the weight I trade I won't let me fade I won't let me fade