So bored yet so worn out Hidden in the waters Disdain me, kick me out Just like your others Couldn't be bothered by the one who needed help I thought I lost it all until I lost myself I don't know what is real I don't know what I feel Tell me why I don't heal Tell me why I'm still Running in circles, can I please disappear? Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear Exhausted from my thoughts Foreign aggression Feels like I'm being watched By your impression I know It's hard to live without any expression Remember that your pain can function like a weapon I don't know what is real I don't know what I feel Tell me why I don't heal Tell me why I'm still Running in circles, can I please disappear? Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear Why do you still look so surprised No matter how many times I try Time and time again I fall, fall, fall, fall Lies Why do you still look so surprised No matter how many times I try Time and time again I fall behind I think I'm falling asleep I pretend that I'm free So keep your distance from me Not who you want me to be So fucking worthless So undefined So fucking helpless When will I thrive? I don't know what is real I don't know what I feel Tell me why I don't heal Tell me why I'm still Running in circles, can I please disappear? Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear I don't know what is real I don't know what I feel Tell me why I don't heal Tell me why I'm still Running in circles, can I please disappear? Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear