Now I've debated That my sobriety is overrated And I want to feel intoxicated For just a moment to escape it I miss you I'm feeling weighted And it's been so long since I've been faded I'm not trying to make this complicated I'm proud of the life that I've created I hate you I miss when my eyes would dilate and I would start to get that taste I'd waited all day for Settle that score with my head on my floor Painted my face with elation, till I'd forget contemplation And I could vacate my mind, copy paste a time Where I was funny, loud, pretty, stupid, forgetful, regretful False sense of serenity, identity, it was my only enemy But damn did it feel good And I miss you Now I've debated That my sobriety is overrated And I want to feel intoxicated For just a moment to escape it I miss you I'm feeling weighted And it's been so long since I've been faded I'm not trying to make this complicated I'm proud of the life that I've created I hate you