I filed my feelings into rows So nothing spills and no one knows I learn your grief like a second tongue Say: I'm okay when I'm undone I hold your storms in borrowed hands Then wash them off like rubber bands My kindness is a measured dose A practiced smile, a perfect pose But every good I force to grow Leaves bruises where the soft should go And in the quiet, I taste the thrill A spotless room, a killing still The warm side sweats, the cold stays dry Tell me why the cold feels like I I'm two-faced truth in one tight dress A tender touch, a hidden press I can save you, I can stare One costs me blood, one feels like air Turn the lights down, let it bite Watch my halo lose the fight If you hear the dark sing stay Don't look away, don't look away Step closer, count to four There's a door behind the door Step closer, lose the should Dark tastes sweet when it feels good I keep a garden in my chest But some roots curl around the rest I cry on cue, I nod, I kneel Then feel impressed I didn't feel Empathy is heavy couture Stitched in patience, worn for war But cold is silk, it slides so true Like finally doing what I want to There's light somewhere in this split skin But I can't promise we'll get in So if you follow where I dive Bring your match, or learn to die alive I'm two-faced truth in one tight dress A tender touch, a hidden press I can heal you, I can take One is a gift, one is a break Turn the lights down, let it bite Watch my halo lose the fight If you hear the dark sing stay Don't look away, don't look away I don't need blood to be a threat I just forget you're real, then yet I watch myself from overhead A doll with strings that thinks it's fed If darkness is a mirror, take a look You might see your face in my open book And if the page turns, if the floor gives way I won't lie: I like the way it sways Hands up, eyes shut Let the panic rut Breathe in, lights out We dance the doubt out I'm two-faced truth in one tight dress A tender touch, a hidden press Come with me, but understand No map survives my shifting hands Turn the lights down, let it bite Watch my halo lose the fight Chase the light through broken gray No guarantee you'll find your way Step closer, if you dare The dark is honest The light is rare